One day  I asked God why I am not naturally friendly to others and many times feel inferior to other Christian brothers and sisters.  Then, a picture of a black sheep came to mind.  This black sheep was standing alone along the edge of the pasture.  The other sheep were white in color.  They were playing together and romping around the field.  

The Lord said to me, "The  sheep in the corner is you, but look closer at yourself.  Take a very close look."   I looked at myself and to my surprise the color was not black but different shades of blue because there  were so many wounds on my body and soul.     Some wounds were still sensitive and bleeding. 

These wounds are so deep and numerous that the color appeared black from a distance.   The Lord told me that my wounds that were inflicted since childhood.  They are wounds of rejection, hurt, wrong choices, isolation, depression, sorrow, and the scars of pain from partial demonic possession that occurred when I worked the Ouija Board before I became a Christian.  

Then, the Lord showed me another picture of me as a white sheep with all my wounds healed by His gentle hand.  He told me that  my wounds will be healed slowly just as a physical wound will heal.  I need to continue to submit to His love, presence, and gentle care.   Then, I began to cry and continued to cry when I was alone.  The crying was a cleansing and my healing had begun.  Relief and freedom came when I finally realized  why I am so skittish of other people.